Okay i know i have been neglecting my blog. but i guess if i have something to share i tell the whole world. no need for the blog. and maybe just maybe i have enough drama in life that i just learn to deal with it without even writing it down. complaining. im contented enough that i have nothing to say about it and just let it pass. but i realize as i read other bloggers' entries i feel some kind of jealousy. the fact that they can constantly update and type whatever that's in their heads. shout outs, dedications, anger, frustration, happiness and sometimes just plain stupid lame jokes (lunch?) . how i wish im like that. well, now i suddenly have all the time in the world to update this measly page of a blog.
i've also concluded that im a jumper. i jump from doing one thing to another. i guess i like a puzzle. i dont like everything to be in one place. some old pictures are in friendster. then it was the famous facebook. thats how i mustve told the story of my life. the life in uni. the friends. the crushes.
and yet my relationship with people has always been the same. i run away from commitments like running away from a cockroach. and everytime i meet a person whom i adore i give restrictions. Rules. Boundaries. but as always im a walking contradiction. leads me back to the rules. why the hell do i set it up? i succumb to the lust and desire anyway. and when you're falling in love how the hell can you tell that you are? what are the signs? URGH! its damn complicated. but whatever happens in the future... i know that my biggest source of happiness comes from....
Yes Yue. Yue have always been there. I know there is the constant bickering and the need to hide what we really have in front of others. Since it's my blog and no other will read it, i am happy to say some things; Yue are not my boyfriend, not my other-half, not my anything. But Yue are first and foremost. My Happiness. Thank Yue. I love Yue.
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