Back In Malaysia

Okay okay... im back and dah seminggu lebih i havent updated... i went back from perth... my flight was at 4.. stress gile because i have this stupid overload crisis.. haih.. then sampai sampai i was bummed.. because no one was there to pick me up.. haih.. i thot.. there must be some day where everyone forgets that im coming back because i dah selalu sangat balik.. teehee... anyway... life has been quite interesting.. see for yourself... i had open house but pics takde.. mama tak kasi bukak computer die.. and its in her account la fiz.. sorry... then i pi egypt.. syok k.. ade hugo.. haih.. berborak kat deck memalam due jam k..... and i thot he'd die speaking more than 100 sentences... hahah sorry james.... then tu je la.. egpyt punye gamba pun limited fiz... mama tak kasi banyak.. but i thank her for bringing me there and see the mummies and one of the wonders of the world.. teehee.,.. love you ma..

A Short One

I'm too tired ryt now to post anything bout egypt, raya open house or whatever. but somehow rather i'm kinda bumped..

And they say:

"Absence make the heart grow fonder.."

but what if it goes the other way round? and u've thought that someday something like this would happen?

Words Of Comfort!

'Cause I'm hopeful. Yes, I am.
Hopeful for today.
Take this music and use it.
And it'll take you away.
And be hopeful, hopeful.

And He'll make a way.
I know it ain't easy, but that's okay.
Let's be hopeful.


Twista feat Faith E: Hope

As I was moping around yesterday, drowning myself in misery, I decided to take a shower. Kinda lika out of the picture, but as i was sadly bathing, i remembered this song and sang it at the top of my lungs!!! I felt so much better.. Ngeeee

I love the words of comfort i get from my family. Mama and Abg fiz.. (Well, Mama, if you're reading this and i know you are! *cheit teehee* I'm actually talking bout you and not just abg fiz abg fiz abg fiz....) Ade ke die jealous fiz? Anyway, Mama said it wasn't the end of the world and suruh relax. I cried, sensitive skit if ngan Mama. When words come from your mother, it will always sound ryt. Unless you're feeling rebellious. Abg fiz pulak puji gue naruk lagu too little too late ni.. And kate chill and what sorts!

From friends Aie je la but words of comfort die lagi menyakitkan hati. Boys. Bloody babi. He was babbling bout how last maths test he studied mcm gila and tak tido sume then markah mcm hanjeng...??? Okay lah... Dia menang lah! Gosh.. And I get other kinds of words of comfort. Praise!! Those graduation pictures really did cheer me up!! Not that I should be comforted by it but if helps keep it coming people.. ngeee joking!! Thanx opu, fiz, muhammad!! gue sayang sama lo! I know takde pics. Nanti la ek?

That's it. Just showing you my gratitude!
Arigato gozaimasta!
Mina Aishiteru!

*Updated Graduation Pics*

With the sadness that is still lingering around me, I manage to put my favorite song 'at the moment'... Thanx Ellise! Love you! Muax!


I also found some new graduation pics. They are pictures from my phone so it may not look as pretty as it should be. What do you think of my many faces? Leave comment please!!

Makes us look angelic, ain't it?
Ayak lemon je-bukan wine!
Speech time is the best time for this

.F.C.U.K. AGAIN!

It's over. My life, that is. It has never happen before. But it did!

I thought i could run away from it. But i cudn't. Now, i regret. I'm sad. I'm depressed. It's not PMS. I'm dead meat. It's the end for me. Wargh!

I cried. I bawled. I howled. I wailed. I screamed. I screeched. I choked. I sobbed. I wept.

I hit. I stomped. I slapped. I kicked. I punched. I squeezed. I pinched. I pulled. I tugged. I pushed.

I laid silently. I sprawled lifelessly. I stood quietly. I sat still.

I did not turn. I did not twist. I did not swing. I did not sway. I did not move.

70 max. That's the highest i could get. 45 minimum. That's the minimum score i could lose.80. That's my fence that i have to jump over. Can i make it with a little bit of luck? Maths.
Medicine.


That's it. No turning back. No changes. No regrets? No hope? No way of getting back in track?NO WORRIES?! How can that be?

My best subject. Turns out my worst exam paper. Top marks, then. Low percentage, now?

Was it my confidence? Overboard? Have I taken in too lightly? Why this test? Why not the previous? There must be something wrong with me. Positive!!

I feel empty. I feel humiliated with myself. I'm ashamed. I'm embarrassed. I'm enraged!

Think I'm exaggerating? That's the difference between you and me....

For now...........
But, I'll be fine.

Yawn : Good Morning!

`~`I got up this morning at 7 by myself! It's amazing.. i woke up without the help of an alarm clock.. i looked aroung my room.. babi- bersepah gila!!! im so tired.. masuk bilik aie and made an earthquake kat atas katil die... die mcm mayat.. goyang2 pun tanak bangun.. hish.. so i decided to search for my camera.. tangkap gamba elok jugak ni.. *teehee*... what i came out with:
(-.-)And nak dengar cerita tak? i was looking for the damn camera.. bilik bersepah sgt mane taknye tak jumpe.. so i was rummaging *spell check- tak bother in the mornings ni* thru every drawer and cupboard but tak jumpe... harapan nak tangkap gamba pagi pagi was wearing thin.. i was so sad so i went to again aie's room to wake him up..

kejut him is
so hard.. tunggu je la die bangun sendiri.. then i had the idea of studying and tidying up my notes and stuff that was all over the place! naik runsing tau tak?!! then terjumpe my beloved camera... teke la kat mane...

('',)
yup yup! kat bawah katil along with other stuff.. good thing takde boogy man or anything and its pagi.. so i was happily taking pictures and buat muke gedik when the camera abis battery... bodhosssss... stupid.. so gamba tak banyak...


d-.-b ---- teehee.. anyways.. this gamba was dulu punya but i like it so nak taruk jugak.. and im like obsessed ngan lagu jojo too little too late.. ive been listening to it for the last 24 hours.. no kidding.. im bored sebenarnye.. sebab i have my physics exams today so got agitated and tak boleh tido balik.. bukan pasal nyamuks bodhos.. teehee.. so here i am.. okay la two more hours to noon.. gotta start the day.. exam starts at 2.. wish me luck puppeteers!!! muax! Bright day, it started....

.F.C.U.K.

Can somebody please tell me.... what's the point of lowering your ego just to say out that u are in need and to say you need help just to find that the person u ask won't help?!!!!??!!

Why the HELL do these circumstances exist? The humiliation. The fear. The anger. I hate it! I for one thing will never say aloud my needs and cry out for help ever again!! Ever. Unless help comes by itself... Bloody babi...

The humiliation to lower my ego and say my fears and needs aloud is painful enough, let alone being turned down.

SHE IS IMPORTANT!!

.:INTRODUCING:.

Hanisah Hj Mohd Faraed... i dont biliv i have introduced u guys to her.. haih.. babe babe.. this is my case.... i tend to forget the important things in my life and they say if u forget it then, it's not important... but ade kah? aku sudah lama bangat tak nelefon sama dia!! miss her alot.. and what ppl? tak percaya ke that she's my babe, ze bitchiest bestfren i've ever met.. lucky kan gue?!!!?!!?!... i know.. i like.. teehee.. anyway, juz got off the phone with her and she mcm sudah lain sgt... dah besar al maklum.. sume orang dah makin mature.. kurang lawak bodoh.. conversation lagi meaningful... teehee.. and i have no time for her bile dah now she sez but HELL NO!!! i have time for you babes.. if not i wont even call you.. like how i call my sister and family and others.. hoi kau nih suke kutuk aku tau.. teehee.. i know she wont be reading this but sape yg bace i want you guys to know that she taught me a lot of stuff that is neccesity for life.. *spell check that neccesity*... naik lrt... naik bus.. bargaining barang la.. kemas my things la.. all the fun funner funnest things we did together.. along with arthini.. but i don't have her picture now so i myt have to mintak her one day.. teehee.. okay okay.. i have to go nail my chemistry paper... erk??!?!!!? boleh ke? wargh.. takut... alryt.. yosh!!! itterashai....


.My.Outside.Life.

There's this one time when i was so shitting bored dok rumah while Aie kuar, i decided to go out and tinggal kan die plak! kihkihkih... it's no much. we were actually going out sebab nak beli graduation stuff like party handbags and sorts. but, we ended up pegi shopping and i of course had to buy a few unneccesary things like a couple of tops and something for him! aiiiyyoooo!! abis duit aku cheit! but i don't care! mau pulang sudah.. teeheee... Amoy, Minex, Fatin, Ika, Fira. Semua melayu okay. takut!! teehee.. jalan jalan la sekejap nak beli baju.. but sebenarnye amoy ika and i tak berape suke shopping so sudahnye dok kat kusi tercongok macam org bodoh! teehee... anyway. Bile dah malam sgt nak balik.. minex and ika balik umah diorang, the rest pegi karaoke! Mama, see? I can even karaoke in Perth! terkejut jugak la they have that sort of entertainment here! wahahaha... then agak dah lewat malam so fira had to go back sebab ade due monkey tengah tunggu die balik since both tadak kunci! teehee* i m referring this to azri and his boyfriend, yat! sorry mate'! then bile dah gile malam nak carik bus susah. kih kih kih.. lame gile tunggu bus dekat the port my kaki nak tercabut. then ade this bus kate lalu the road of fatin's house so we thought it was a saviou but HELL NO! it dropped us off like 2 kilometres away from the neighbourhood! f*cking bus driver! cibai punya orang! bloody babi! *kids don't say this in front of your parents* jalan punye la jalan sampai la jugak! seriously man. dah ngantuk sume! haih! that's it. tengok la gamba!!!Outfit of the day: Takde baju dah and malas nak cari!
I like!!!! Mesti main!!

Bubble tea time!!
Singing Melodiously till Fatin went and destroy every song! wahah! sorry mate' just kidding!
Ngantuk dah!
Now listen kids: Smoke Kills! Tengah tunggu bus. Memang syiok!

GRADUASI ELISHA DAN AZRI!

`Ze Bitches`
left to right:. Monica, RC, Liesa, Chanel, Eli, Thana, Bel, Desiree, Florah

`Ze Butchers`
standing left to right:. ntah, King, Jinesh
sitting left to right:. Aie, Kav, MaZael, ntah, Khairul


~Chronology of the evening~

5.30pm
Waited for RC and Kavitha along with the damn cab!


6.oopm
Reached Parmelia Hilton Hotel

6.15pm
Bergambar la! Apa lagi!


6.30pm
Masuk ballroom. Speech from Tony deGruchy, our Head of the International Department. Opening gambit by the February start: Chinese Dance. Lagu Matsuri tu jugak.

comel kan? time speech ni...
7.00pm

Certificate presentation. I was worrying over tripping over my dress. Sudah amat lapar!


7.20pm
Entree! Satay chicken- more like cook chicken then cucok kat lidi - Popia sayur, Sotong Rings -this one sedap, Vege pizza.


8.00pm
Main course:. non-vegetarian: Grilled Chicken With Hokkien "Hard" Noodles. Nobody attempted the noodles: takut patah gigi! Ma Zael called it half sepak takraw ball.
Vegetarian: Rice and Vege Korma... Mana lagi sedap?
those noodles are super-hard okay? kalah muruku!

8.30pm
.Pictures! Best Achievement Award. And Tom Grace's speech, the Head of Canning College 9.00pm
Dessert: Ice-cream and fruits with strawberry sauce. yummm...!! Amelia singing and some guy performing.. More pics and more pics!
Singer Amelia and Eli


10.00pm
Called cab and went back home. Haih, it's not a prom. No dance, no music, no nothing... Should I complain? Got my cert. That's that.
Of course kena ada! *teehee*

AT LAST! RAYA PICS, ABG FIZZ!!!


Perempuan Melayu Terakhir Terburuk dan Tergemok!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL!!!

.:top left to ryt(standing) RC, Chanel, Shy, Amin:.
.:sitting on left to ryt Bel, Minex, Amoy, Fatin, Fizah:.
.:on the floor left to ryt Eli, Aie, Liesa, Yat:.

I've finally found time to update my blog! Beraya itu syiok kan?! Ada la pukimak-like incidents but hey, that wont's stop raya. Aku malas mau nulis berpanjangan lagi. Lihat aja lah gambarnya ya?!!
Eating.... Liesa's HUGE House!!

Eating Liesa's home made M&M's cookies

Watching Shrek 2: Time Raya? Rumah orang plak tuh!

We love smiling for the cameraFadillah's house, Far left yg berbaju biru
Dah penat & panas ikat rambut! Fadilla's Hs

UMNO * or some sort* Open Hs- padahal kat civic hall
Ramai Melayu okay, takut! teehee...

Boyan-boyan perth!
On the way balik. With a car. Relief! Kalau tak amik bas!South Perth City Hall: Muka gue cantek! Muka Aie mcm ceebaii!!
Aku sayang sama kamu!