Story of A Goddess

For most people, it is the end of the year. The time where we reminisce all the things that we have done in that year. Exams, found love, graduation, broken hearts and speeding tickets. It's always different every end of the year. Last year you had your first kiss, the previous year you broke a leg. It continues to change as you grow up. It marks the end of a 365-day cycle before the wheel turns around and start fresh.

For some, it is a beginning. The beginning of new hope, new resolution, new life. It's a thrill to know that a new starting line is being drawn and the race is reset. Everything that was in the past cannot be undone hence, it's time to think of NEW ways to handle and get over it.

For one person, this particular date of this particular year means a lot to him. Well, he doesn't care much about it but it is actually a big deal. He turns 21. Finally legal. The age that marks his absolute freedom. He's getting a golden key! It's time for him to spread his wings and fly. It's also the time where he spends it with his closest friends. A small gathering but worthwhile. With a cake that will eventually be smeared on his face. Laughs, jokes, and drinks. Last year, nothing happened because everything was a blur. He had end of semester finals and the only thing worth remembering was going to the NYE celebration in the packed-alley of The Streets in The Curve. But it was already the end of his special day. Still, he had his arms around a beautiful lady. He is one lucky man! haha.

This year like all the other years, he continued his tradition of small gathering party with his close friends. Unfortunately I don't get that kind of privilege. I have other obligations i have to take care of. He has his friends. I'm kinda bummed for not being able to EVER know or see that side of him. He may say that all he wants is to celebrate with me. But it doesn't help knowing that he is having fun and I'm not there to atleast share it with him.



*laughs softly* He texted saying he could call for free because it was his birthday (yea call me only when its free PFFTT!) But i know better. I can't wait for him because I'm gonna get hurt waiting when things don't turn out fine. I don't want our conversation to be fuzzy in his mind. I want it to be vivid. So I can just talk to him tomoro when both of us are more sober and sane.

Despite the shittiness that I'm going thru(btw, i have major fever now.) I know that I won't spoil it for him. He can have it his way. My life still has to continue. I have a wedding tomoro. Angkat dulang. Too sick though. Hope I can pull it off tomoro. I'm longing to be in Penang but my family always comes first. And I don't think I'm even fit to travel right now. I'm a little worried. I haven't been this sick since last year. And that last year was a bad ass fever. A turning point in my life.

Oh well, All our memories are deeply etched in my brain and heart. Hope that one day, when we are together again, I can celebrate your birth of life with you.



My Prince.
My Sanctuary.
My Heart.

I love you. Happy birthday.


XOXO
Yours Truly. Elisha