Eager

Im not exactly happy that after all this, you chose to leave me hanging. What i don't get is, i didn't care as much until you actually contact everyone else but me. Did I do something wrong? I helped with all that i can. Of course i feel bad when people talk about you and i can't help laugh at the jokes but to actually not update me on what is gonna happen to you. To me that's just rude. No courtesy.
I know we're not best of friends but i really think that i deserve to know how it is going in your life. Of course you said thank you and that you appreciate it really.

What i cant comprehend is my degree of irritatedness. Why the hell am i so bothered by this? *sigh* i need some love. And my edward is soooo busy with his career that he is neglecting me. Fine im bitchy at certain times of the month and it is the GODDAMN time already! Why am I ranting like a lunatic again? I have so many things to say. But i swear to you, you need parental guidance. It's effing explicit. I can't blog about it so what the hell can i do? I need to scream and shout and cry like how i let my buried-deep feelings out. It's just a mechanism of coping. And after the storm, there will always be sunshine again. That I believe in. Because I'm like that.

No point in typing so much. I should get a move.



*part of me feels like im such a monster. Do I actually like her being miserable? Im so going to hell. Help*

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