Story of A Goddess

Ah... its that time of the year again. where you have to force your heaty ass to sit on that hard, wooden chair just so that you can get some studying done. well, for us medical students its suppose to be constant. but knowing elisha fadhilah khalid... the known procrastinator, she waits till its only a month and a half to do all systems at one go. for once i wont fail. i will do my best.

This entry isnt much about studying. I got bored of it. i watched Penelope. The girl who was cursed with a pig's snout and have been hidden by the overly-controlling, psycho-never-satisfied person of a mother. All i know is that that type of mother do exist. i'm not saying that my mum is. but to a certain extent, mums are like that. only in this story she is exaggerated. Mums want what's best for their children. very few mothers, resent their children and never in their slightest would dream of hoping for the worst, well, then they shouldn't even be called mothers but MONSTERS.

The problem is even though your family members have the right and good intention and say things to you.... you can't help the way you might react to these things. especially when there are other events in your so called dramatic life that affect your mood. and mine swings like a gorilla on a tree.

That's why you search for souls that connect with you. that have something in common. everybody is actually alone in this world so we create bonds to help us make it through. Sadly, as it ends and we enter the after world - i know some of you don't believe in it - we begin a new life there and we wont know who our families are. who our lovers were. we start again as separate entities. *sheds tears*

while watching the movie just now, Penelope said,

'I felt a thousand heart breaks rush over me...'

It's got me thinking. what can break my heart so badly that i'd feel that way..? the fact that life will end someday somehow. today, another friend's father passed away. She was a highschool mate. although i wasnt close to her, i need not the closeness to feel her pain. If you ever come across this Sarah Ramli. I got your back. Stay strong.

Today, i had a wonderful day with you. It was those few blissful moments that i know when i look into your eyes, i can actually tell you really like me. I don't know anything about love. I don't know how real true love is but i know what i feel for you is real. I never knew what is it that i own or have or what trait that's built in my genetic code that you love so much. but thank you for being the person who loves me no matter what. yes we have our ups and downs and keeping count of the days that we love each other is not our routine. it seems like ive known you for quite a long time. although there is so much that i need to know about you, yet you say i already know inside out. please... if our destinies are already written out for us and there's a time where we have to part, promise me that you'll remember me. thats the most i can ask of you. I miss you.